Explain to me why its so hard to wash away this feeling. It sticking onto me so hard. It is crazy. While it eats away at my sanity I am doomed to falling into its clutches at any moment. Oh my god, I am being driven insane.

Let me go already. I beg you. Let me be. If you can't give me my wish, just leave me be already. Shadows of my past, leave me alone.