And all this intellectualization isn't helping much. Time to rinse and release and get back to walking.

Some frustrations are just better left forgotten.

If it keeps you happy, it makes my day more worth my while.

Damn, i gotta admit that some friends, really do make me miss them.

@_@

Somehow a close friendship is a sacred thing to me. It somehow opens up all my doors that i usually keep closed to the public eye. It really does transform me. I guess i have to admit, in the past i have never let myself get close to anybody. But somehow, I guess, as i have started to let myself just do what my heart tells my brain, i have begun to see that there are people around me that really make this world a wonderful place.

And when I can't reach you, I pray that God and his angels will keep you safe, far from worry and weariness.

And I could never tell you how. No, that's just saying it wrong. The right way of saying it is: I could never say enough or write enough to tell you how much you mean to me. Although it may be difficult at times, I'll always stand by you. I'll stick around for better or for worse.

I'm never going to back down. If you need me to be somewhere; if you need me to do something; if you just need me to listen; I'll be there. It might not be the perfect situation, but I sure am convinced that this is the best I've ever had. My heart tells me that its going to be even more, probably the best I'll ever have in my life.

I could write you a thousand letters and still not be done. But I won't because it'll just be meaningless. Instead, I'll wake up every morning just to send you a message and hope to put a smile on your face. If you're up late, I'll just be talking to you and hopefully I can last until you fall asleep. Just to make sure you get to bed with some comfort and reassurance.

If you need to cross the road, or climb a mountain, or maybe find something that's god-know's-what-and-where, even though I might not be able to really find it, I'll do whatever I can to help you out. I admit I'm no superman, but I'll do my best to be a Clark Kent for you.

If you need someone to talk to or just to simply crap with, I'll be that person for you. I admit, my life might get busy. But that doesn't mean I can't take out maybe five or ten minutes to reply to your messages and make some calls.

Hey, what can I say? I enjoy your company. I hope you do too, because I sure am having the a great time whenever I'm doing anything with you. I just hope to make you feel the same way as well.

^_^

Everyday, when i wake up, i wanna do my best to make sure you got a nice start to your day. I really don't have to, but i really want to. It means, exactly what it looks like. I'm here for you and i want to make sure you're okay. I'm here to stay.

Everyone needs somebody to remind them how much they mean to the people around them.

The stars stare down from the aky
they whisper among themselves
watching us, from high above

the moon
it guards the night sky
beaming down borrowed light

the sun in the center
of our milky way
where light walks from
to our little earth

and why couldn't i be just like them?
to just watch, to just watch...
but You put me here down on this earth
gave me feet, gave me soul
gave me mind, gave me heart
gave me a body, to what end?

i know this diffusion
and all the confusion
is just to make me believe
how wonderful life really is

My life was like a zero, because x =0.

But then you came along, and a "y" came along.

So i guess i added in the y....x + y =?

The answer was a blur. But then after that, i came to realize,

x + y= infinity.

So i came up with the perfect equation, because i finally found what "x" and "y" stood for.

It turned out, that the perfect equation, all along, this is what i was looking for:

me + you = happiness =)

Everytime i think of you, i wonder if you do the same.

Sometimes, i am overcome by this uncontrollable sadness. It comes from somewhere deeper inside me, somewhere i have yet to understand.

I hope you understand that sometimes, i just feel this way.

But its times like these, when i get this way, that i know how important you are to me. I might never admit it, but you're the first one that i would turn to. And i'd do the very same for you.

I hope you know that.

Drives me crazy, in all the right ways. Would you stay?

So. I can't make up my mind?

Let's just let the dust settle and I'll enjoy the moment. Take a breath and just live.

At times its just harder to live.

Other times it feels so much easier.

All the time I'm thankful to have more than just friends.

Sometimes, its hard to stay close. But, its even harder to stay away...

Explain to me why its so hard to wash away this feeling. It sticking onto me so hard. It is crazy. While it eats away at my sanity I am doomed to falling into its clutches at any moment. Oh my god, I am being driven insane.

Let me go already. I beg you. Let me be. If you can't give me my wish, just leave me be already. Shadows of my past, leave me alone.

why did you make me with a heart...?

I can't hold back any longer. Gosh. Why...?

PRAY

sometimes i wake up and i can't figure out what i am going to do with my life. but actually there's always been this singular theme to it that i've always wanted to pursue. its just that only lately have i pushed myself to really go all out for it. i think when people talk about setbacks, some people talk about them in spit. some people talk about them like they are long gone, buried in their past. some people talk about them like they are still with them. everybody has something to be sorry about.

but i guess i just can't let that bring me down anymore. oh damn, there goes the power again. this is kinda ridiculous. everytime things seem to go smoothly, something just crops up and throws a thorn in my side. then everything seems so bleak and dull again. all these things making me deviate and distracting me from what i really want, they really are raging a winning battle most of the time.

for once, i want the sun to shine and show me what it all means.

Maybe I really am done with all this...I can't feel the fire burning anymore. Or this is just the way it happens. Then sometime again I get a sign that tells me otherwise.